“There was just one clear thought: ALLOW. Intuitively I let my body take control of the situation. It was a miracle and the only way to scape the surmounting panic in my mind. For reasons that seem to fail me, even today, I was able to get through this crisis by myself. There in the cool concrete floor, under the shimmer of the city lights an image popped in my mind.” (…)
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Here is where I share the insights of my healing journey with a sincere hope that it can help anyone who might be going through the same.
This is my story, please be kind and hold it in your heart.
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Aquí es donde comparto los aprendizajes de mi recorrido a sanar, lo hago con la esperanza de ayudar a cualquiera que se encuentre en una situación similar.
Esta es mi historia, te pido que la recibas con compasión y la guardes en tu corazón.
Self-compassion And Finding The Mother within
“I spent a long time wondering how to find a bridge between the darkest shades of my emotions and feeling whole again. (…) Shame is the shield where the nastiest most hateful voices in our minds reside.”
Read MoreHarness the Rage - Use Its Wisdom To Affect Change
“Once I became aware of what happened to me, even the most innocent hug, event or word would trigger me. Between us, every day felt like a minefield. Raging became my only option. Seeing the man I love hurt and struggle because of what had happened, almost 30 years ago, was beyond infuriating. Acknowledging the impact and suffering it cost my parents and the never-ending shame that we’ve all been carrying for decades was enough for me to burn in anger forever. I felt helpless however rage demands for something to be done, so I was presented with a choice. (…)'“
Read MoreLittle Raging Warrior - Creativity as a driving force for healing
“Looking back, I believe here is where I first started to consciously use my creativity to find a way to heal. She (I think of creativity in female form) put on her little bootstraps, camouflaged herself like Rambo getting into the jungle and charged on like there was no tomorrow”.
Read MoreDepression Transformed
“Still, it would not be until a few years later, under the last round of therapy that I would learn it was all part of an armor I had built up for myself. A self-defense mechanism to survive in the emotionally hostile environment I was brought up in. As much as I would love to believe that it was the abuse alone that sent me into- what felt at times- a never-ending cycle of depression and anxiety of not knowing when it would get “bad” again. It is simply not the truth.”
Read MoreEMDR, The Little Girl & Her Rage
“The whole experience started to feel as if a huge weight was being lifted off my shoulders. All of sudden I had “space” within me to feel the range of emotions I had been resisting all along. The dam of numbness I’ve built up over the years was beginning to collapse and rage was quick to take over.”
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